Where did you go? Amidst the depths of this flesh and simple matter

I wonder for you, wandering

aimless yet hoping to find your light-the ball of exploratory genius to explain all my whys away

I have loved you in my best way, you surprised me by suggesting it wasn’t enough 

How can a heart pretend?
Lest it is the only piece of us we cannot manipulate into our own disguise, hopeful it will hide our shame and fear and make us whole again.